Nursery rhyme of another summer afternoon

All of a sudden I met a guy playing my favorite piano music in the pool hall. It's "La valse d'Amélie", one of the most soothing musics I've ever listened to. I came by and asked him this is very strange to me somebody know about this song in here, I thought you guys don't mind  about this genre of music and he said yes. when I asked can you play "Comptine d'un autre été l'après midi" as well, he amazingly said yes that's the only other one I know from that movie "Amelie" and he played that too. I did really enjoy it and it just.. made my day. his name was Jonathan, that reminded me of the book "Jonathan the seagull". I even told him about the book and yes, sometimes just a little piece of music makes you feel better.

P.S.
Here is a link to "La valse d'Amélie" 
and a link to "Comptine d'un autre été l'après midi" 
the picture is a painting by Kazuya Akimoto named "serene circles"

Bio11

Sometimes you just shut up and think. do not think of all those dumb asses that are lazy and stupid. they don't ask, they don't know either. they look for a chance to tease, to make fool, to have fun of you. do not think of them. it's already proven. think more my dear. just think more and act like a smart one.

p.s. secret of happiness is freedom, and the secret of freedom is courage. and this courage is what I'm talking about. is what they don't have inside. foolish people

Adventure

Oh please stop it, I'm not that kinda person.

I tell you what, I had a trip to Chicago last month and deadly enjoyed it, yet looking for new excitements. I remember last year I was telling a friend, people have to come around here and live their last years of life. it's super serene in here, calm and quiet! and me, totally inverse. alright, yeah, that's true. I found the spelunkers group in this 25% girls/ 75% boys university and went on a trip exploring the Roubidoux, a cave located in St. Roberts, and hell yes it was fantastic. Imagine crawling through a very tiny hole for meters fitting your body, trying to pull yourself forward, feeling like an earthworm especially when you're kinda floating on real sticky mud. sometimes you'll get through two long wide stony plates a few inches apart covered with wet mud and sometimes, into the holes upward and downward, sometimes kneeling, walking in the cave ponds and .. just wow. I know people are not interested in such things but these kinda stuff keeps me alive, simply adventure!
and don't forget to get the perfect gear,
Now you don't call me and say that again. I'm not that kinda person, I got my own interests...

p.s. I like this picture a lot

Bio10

There are so many things need to be taken care of, all mixed together, preparing for the lectures every week, two research projects that need to be started and finalized, thesis, qualifying exam, enrolled class and small annoying chores in the office and home ... and yet this feeling is strange. comes and goes so often, oh yeah what goes around sometimes strangely comes around again and here we are, planet earth, human beings, hope and happiness and sometimes -hopefully- being down. It's a long time since I felt it and that is being restarted again very irregular. I have to sleep again..

You got a fast car

listening to the "Fast Car" by "Tracy Chapman" thinking about so many things all at the same time and the same weight. mixed like a fruit salad with all the tastes, made a bitter sweet moment in my mind right now, right here at my room, the new room, in a new house. things were new and always the newer ones are coming toward me. had a trip to Chicago, a wonderful trip filled with science and adventures with the flavor of fun, so fun spicy. oh, and ...
I remember we were driving driving in your car
The speed so fast I felt like I was drunk
City lights lay out before us
And your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder
And I had a feeling that I belonged
And I had a feeling I could be someone, be someone, be someone  ...
oh and ...
thinking of people surrounding me, people who dare, who fear, who think and who fail, people oh, people come from society, people form it, and oh people sometime get so much like an artifact, like a what, like a hand craft, people who work morning to night, people who stink, people who I don't want to hate but I've no choice. oh this damn thought of the people, it sometimes drive me nuts.
now oh now ..
You got a fast car
I want a ticket to anywhere
Maybe we make a deal
Maybe together we can get somewhere ..
we make a deal, get me from her, from him, from them, just get me far away where I can be still the same kid, close the eyes and while the drops streaming down the face, I'll be alone and filled with the very enlightening sparks of hope.
Oh n I was going to say something about a person who thinks every word he says is right is correct, he teases people caz he's the first class, that's what he thinks most of the time. he fools people, but he's totally wrong, I can feel it he's too far from the right place. remember once he said, the only reason you're alive it's because you're not at the exact point you ought to be. and he's still getting away from that point. get him straight, but of people plz.
this came from a deep dizziness. just to let u know not to take it very serious! good night angel..
You got a fast car
But is it fast enough so we can fly away
We gotta make a decision
We leave tonight or live and die this way...

Bio9

هیچ حرف خاصی نیست. یک سال تمام شد. اثاث کشی هم کردیم دقیقا سالروز فرود بر دیار کفر. سرویس شدم. دیگه بسه دیگه اینجا میخوام موندگار شم. به عنوان پیام بازرگانی فقط بگم که امیدوارم همیشه آدم بد های زندگیم ازم دور شن. اینجوری حس بهتری دارم

Urgent Bullshit

امروز استاده ایمیل زده اِرجنت! میگه مقاله رو فلان کن و اله و بله! من چار روز پیش بهش تحویل دادم حالا واسه ریوایز کردنش بعد چار روز که جواب زده ارجنت فردا صب بیا منو ببین. موزیک داون، مال جِی شون هم که داره پخش میشه با این حس و حال. دستم تو گچ! امروز رفت توش. آخر ماهه اثاث کشی هم داریم. قبلش باید خونه رو هم تمیز کنیم تحویل بدیم، موزیک یو بیلانگ وید می مال تیلور سویفت هم الان شروع شد، از اونور هم یه ایمیل دیگه اومده که برنامه ی تیچینگ اسیستانتشیپ و حواله کرده و گفته ببینم به برنامم می خوره یا نه!

همه اینا به کنار، خواهرم عکسای اخیرشونو که رفته بودن شمال واسم فرستاده داشتم اونا رو نگاه میکردم که اصن روح و روان پرواز کرد شمال، زادگاه، وطن. دلم واسه خونواده یهو تنگ شد. به به آهنگ پلِی مال سارا کُننر، وای که من چقدر دوستش دارم خوراک این حال و هوا هم هست .. عکس فامیلا، حسام پسر خاله که تازه پاش شکسته، یار خودم بود این پسر، خاله ها، عروسی شهاب پسر خاله م که واسه عقدش هم من رفته بودم باکو واسه مصاحبه، ... شیوا دخترخاله م، بقیه، همه ... همه بودن و من نبودم. ای بابا آدم میمونه چی بگه نمی دونم کجا داریم میریم اصن. خوبیش کجاس بدیش کو! دلمونو خوش کردیم به کجاش من موندم واقعا

حالا همه اینا رو بیارم بچسبونم به اون ایمیل ارجنت یارو بچسبونم حس میکنم دوست دارم بخوابم و فردا بهش بگم برو یه کم زندگی کن استاد عزیز. یه دو تا دوست داشته باش بتونی عصرا باهاشون خوش و بش کنی، بتونی آخر هفته ها غیر از آفیست جای دیگه ای هم بری .. بچه هاتو بیشتر ببین نه هر چارماه یه بار وقت بریک ها بیان اینجا و تازه اونا رو با خودت بیاری آفیست و اگه من با دختر چارساله ت صحبت کنم بم بگه آی میس مامی... برو زنتو ببین مرد حسابی برو یه کم زندگی کن ... ،

هیچی همین. حس خوبی نیست این که دارم اما دوستش دارم ..

Roller Coaster

Hah! I did this one as well, I mean the very scary exciting roller coasters, there was three of them in St. Louis Six Flags. wow, just a big one, was so amusing and exciting ... there was a bungee jump rope that we didn't have enough time to get to that but next time I'll try that too! this was just another new experience written in my life book, a good one indeed.
Special thanks to Missouri University of Science and Technology for managing fun event for the students.
I'll be back soon :D hal kardi khodshirnie akharesho khpdayish :))

Bio8

گاهی اوقات خیلی سگ می شم. شما ببخشید خودم می دونم. تقصیر خودمه، می گم که شما ببخشید، من هم که دارم اعتراف می کنم. اصولا توصیه میشه به شما خانم یا آقای محترم که مثلا د.و.س.ت من محسوب میشی، در این مواقع منو تنها بذاری بهتره.      اون جماعتی که می دونن من گاهی اوقات از سگم سگ تر می شم بهترین دوستای من هستن و اون جماعتی که نمی دونن، کُلُهُم برن گم شن چون به اندازه کافی و وافی بهترین دوست دارم و خیلی هم دوستشون دارم و به قول یارو گفتنی شماها که خیر شما به ما نمی رسد، شر مرسانید.

bio7

صبح آفتابی بود(م)، همه چیز خوب بود، با این که گرم بود ولی خوب بود، همه چیز مثل مدت ها آروم بود. کار هم پیش می رفت کم یا زیاد

یه تار عنکبوت قوی دهنه غار کشیده شده بود تا امروز صبح، که پاره شد همین یه ساعت پیش و باز هم من هستم و سکوت و دیوارهای خط خطی و تهوع آورش؛ آره حق با تو اه من همیشه این طور بودم. از دید تو البته و خیلی های دیگه که از نوع تو بودن. من یه روزی بود که اینطور نبودم، خواستم، احساس کردم، شیرین بود و زجرآور، شاید یائسه هم بود ولی فوق العاده بود. زجرآور بود، خیلی زجرآور از نوع انتظار، من چشیدمش اون طعم ابدی رو ولی نابود شدم و از بهشت رونده. حالا هم هرگز نمی خوام دوباره برگردم. شاید فرار از تحمل زجری باشه که یه روزی سال ها به جون خریدم اما دیگه هرگز نمی خوام برگردم هر چی که هست هر چه شیرین، هر چه زیبا و هر چه بنیان آفرینش از او، من دیگه نمی خوام. و این پس لرزه هایی که گهگاه تارهای غار منو پاره می کنه و منو به خودش می کشونه از سمی ترین سم ها هم کشنده تره

شام طوفانی بود(م)، همه چیر همچنان خوبه، گرم هم نیست، ولی آروم هم نیست(م) و بازم امشب باید به فراموشی برم. م.ن. د.و.س.ت ن.د.ا.ر.م دچار تو بشم. همین

اثبات شد، برو گم شو، گل، گل، گل رز