tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31424962586560126432024-03-13T11:41:49.539+03:30Pocket DiaryGishar!http://www.blogger.com/profile/05004352101559539041noreply@blogger.comBlogger233125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3142496258656012643.post-24528768617069425442017-10-08T18:54:00.000+03:302017-10-08T18:58:20.374+03:30The Reserve @ Ridgewood<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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This is a
narration of an experience I had with this residential complex: The Reserve at Ridgewood, Sandy Springs, GA. It is not a
short version. I wrote it because I had promised myself to do it.<br />
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There are
three girls working here named and their manager. I traveled from another state
to Georgia for a week to find a home as I was going to move in the next two
weeks. So I found this complex The Reserve at Ridgewood and chose an apartment
in their complex I liked the plan. It was getting ready for next available
resident which was going to be me. I paid the deposit so they’ll keep it for me
and went back home and did all the payments and opening account for gas and
electricity so that they would provide me the apartment key. <o:p></o:p></div>
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On Saturday
noon I sent a friend to get the keys for me as I was going to be late and their
office would be closed after 4 or 5 pm. I arrived at 10 pm and got the key from
my friend in their fancy basket of welcome package. I went into the apartment
and found all the carpet everywhere throughout the apartment completely soaked that
all my socks and even my pants bottom got totally wet. It was late at night
after 13 hours’ drive that I saw this. The office was close and was going to be
close the next day on Sunday too. They had not even left the AC on and it felt
like a tropical wetland in there. Both I and my wife were so angry and upset
that just went to rest at a hotel. That was how they had provided us, total new
residents, with our home on our arrival. <o:p></o:p></div>
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I had an
appointment with the movers the next day at 10 am which I postponed to noon, so
that maybe the carpet is in a better condition. That morning I even went to buy
a piece of plastic to lay over the carpet so that I could unload the truck.
They came at noon and saw the carpet and frankly suggested I need to dry this
up before moving in, they suggested industrial fans which I went and bought on
Sunday afternoon. I bought two of those and contacted emergency maintenance to
come and see what’s going on in that wetland of an apartment for which I had
already paid a ton of money just to get the key, to a very inhabitable place!
The emergency guy was stuck in between honesty and the benefits of his
supervisor managing the complex! I wanted him to see what a mess they had
provided me. He contacted his manager and realized the carpet cleaners had come
to clean the carpet on the same day that I was supposed to move in, like a
couple hours before I arrived. For God’s sake, I was supposed to be in my home
on Saturday morning and you show up to clean my carpet at 8 pm?! It just
happened that I arrived late on that day. And he had done an absolutely
terrible job on not only cleaning the carpet but soaking it with dirty water
sitting there! <o:p></o:p></div>
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The
emergency guy brought another two fans to fan out the moisture from the carpet
on Sunday along with the other two big ones I had bought. I had to leave it and
go back to the hotel which I had already checked out since I thought it will be
good enough to move in but it was absolutely worsened with the stink coming out
of it. I had rescheduled with the movers until Monday at 6 pm just to be sure
it will be done by then. Next day was my first day at work which started by me
traveling to work from a hotel. My wife went to see the apartment and couldn’t
stand the space as it was so horribly stinking. She went to the manager to let
him know what has been happening to us in this time and he had treated her so
wrongly as if we owe him something on top of the $1,900 I had already paid from
my previous home and now was a homeless person without a penny of cash in my
pocket! That was so frustratingly cruel and absolutely irresponsible. I had to
leave work, my first day at work at a whole new company after 4 hours and go
see what on earth was going on with my assumingly future home!!! What a cruel
world it is, the people, the realtors, and those who manage real states! It
feels like they want to draw your blood and drink it in front of your eyes!<o:p></o:p></div>
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I went there
and talked to the manager for about an hour and explained what a mess they had
provided for us (I wish there was another word I could title him with, as he is
so not worth this title). They did not seem to care much but to contact the
carpet cleaner and blame them. The carpet was a little less moist and I thought
maybe I could move in now. I sat a bit by the kitchen inside the apartment and
I felt like I was to puke from the smell rising from the floor. Yet still I
thought it will go away and I cursed the people in charge so damn hard in my
heart. That evening the movers came again and I was somehow determined to move
in but I wanted a second opinion, not my wife’s as she hated it already. I
asked the movers for their honest opinion and they walked into the apartment
and back up right away. They said either the whole building is full of mildew
or some animals are left dead in this building. That was when I lost it. It was
Monday and the office was open and I was there and it was their home and they
were supposed to have it move-in-ready by Saturday and I had no place to go. I
called the emergency maintenance again and he came over and saw what hellish of
a condition they had provided for me. He contacted his supervisor and his
manager and they started a conversation. He said they will replace the carpet
tomorrow, Tuesday!! And both me and my wife still homeless, paid for something
that was not even slightly ready had no option but to go to a hotel again using
my credit cards.<o:p></o:p></div>
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I talked to
my work manager and explained him the situation and he said don’t go to work
tomorrow; stay home and finish the inhumane business those people had created
for you. I came back on Tuesday morning and respectfully complained about the
terrible conditions and that I expect to see somebody to take responsibility.
Thanks God I had some credit cards, otherwise I had to sleep in my car for three
nights! Apparently the big guys of this management, this absolutely
irresponsible management, had talked to each other and had the complex manager
suggest me that I also have the option of termination of lease based on mutual
agreement with a reimbursement of the costs that had incurred on me during this
time. I and the manager signed some agreements on the funds to be reimbursed
back to me and we rushed out to find another place. All the time I had spent to
come up with this location was in vain and all the money I had spent the past
two weeks on the hotel to find a good place was wasted and I restarted my
search. We were so frustrated that quickly selected a small apartment in the
area but at least we saw inside of it first. <o:p></o:p></div>
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I had no
money for another two weeks until I get my first paycheck and still had not
received any reimbursements. I had not received my refund for another 25 days
and I had sent them several emails telling them about my condition and almost
begging them to expedite the process of refunding me, all due to what they had
done to me, but the only thing they said was it takes up to a month for a check
to be issued! I was just so sorry for the management of this apartment complex
and was just happy that I had some credit cards. I spent another night in a
hotel and the same movers came help me on Wednesday at my new location. All
that time all my life was in a U-Haul truck and I was homeless and penniless
due to what happened here. All and all due to the irresponsibility of the
person or the people in charge here. They don’t care about your condition! They
just want the money out of your pocket and the sooner they get the money the
sooner their true nature reveals itself. It’s just another small evidence of
what capitalism has done to the people, especially those in real estate
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<span style="line-height: 115%;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">I went through this experience with this
property and I took a ton of pictures and videos of the apartment in that
condition just to keep a record for myself. I wish I could record the
vomit-provoking stench of the apartment too. I just don’t wish that to happen
to anyone. It is so terribly exhausting, aggravating, and frustrating. I don’t
know how the other apartments are in this complex but I would not recommend
dealing with such a management who is so irresponsible and negligent about
their residents. There are a lot of other good places for the more cautious
people. </span></span>Gishar!http://www.blogger.com/profile/05004352101559539041noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3142496258656012643.post-86415507429873564722016-11-17T21:49:00.000+03:302016-11-17T21:57:19.245+03:30Perplexity <div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"><span style="background: white; color: #222222;">On a cold
Monday night on October 14, 2016 at approximately 1:48 am, a police officer is
notified of a stopped vehicle on highway 21 near Deer Dr. close to
Fallsville. The vehicle has a flat tire and driver thinks he has struck a
guardrail too. Officer notices the left front tire to be blown and shredded and
other damages to the other side of the car on the passenger side, maybe caused
by guardrail. There is no guardrails in that area though. </span><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"><span style="background: white; color: #222222;"><span style="font-family: arial, helvetica, sans-serif;">Officer asks the driver what happened and he
says he stops the car when he realize the tire goes flat. Officer asks him if
he struck anything on the road; he says no. When he is asked about the right
side damage, he says he must have hit something but he doesn't know! The driver
then says that he and his wife had taken their daughter home to Boxley and were
heading back north to Kingston. The officer tells him that he is heading south
on highway 21 just south of Kingston, but he could not explain why he was on
the other side of the road driving away from their home; he didn't even
remember turning around at any point! Their car was then towed to their
residence by a towing company who knew their family. The tow guy tells the
officer that their daughter had died several years ago.</span><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"> </span></span></span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222;"><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">What's your first impression on this, I mean the very first impression?
I'd like to know that. Is it confusing? funny? scary? sad? or what? all work
but the first impression is only one of them.</span></span></div>
Gishar!http://www.blogger.com/profile/05004352101559539041noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3142496258656012643.post-1931754845178267122016-09-26T00:23:00.002+03:302016-09-26T00:23:23.583+03:30Concealed thoughts!<div style="text-align: right;">
فقط یک چیز. تقدس یک هدف والا همواره برتر و پررنگ تر از آزار هر سنگریزه ایه که در راه رسیدن به اون هدف ممکنه <br />
جلوی پای انسان باشه. همه ی مسیر ها هموار نیستن، همه شون جاده ی حاضر و آماده هم نیستن. خیلی موقع ها هم باید از روی موانع پرید، گاهی موانع به نظر خیلی محکم میان ولی در واقع هیچ مانعی محکم نیست. هیچ مانعی مانع نیست، ما حتی گاهی اسم سنگریزه ها رو می ذاریم مانع.<br />
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حرف خاصی نبود ولی یه عالمه چرندیات بود که همش پیش نویس شد و موند همون تو. من تا به حال دو یا سه بار تصمیم گرفتم داستان زندگی مو بنویسم هر بار هم تو تست گشادی که برای نوشتار تنگ لازم، به کار می ره رد شدم، یک بار با امتیاز شاهد ردش کردم ولی باز هم نشد، یه کمی نوشتیم از شیکم مادرمون بیرون نیومده نوشته ها خاک خور شدن. هیچی گفتیم این کارا به درد ما نمی خوره، همین بایو مایو ها که هر از گاهی می نویسیم از سرمون هم زیاده. به قول یکی از دوستان که هر کی از مامانش قهر می کنه یا می ره خواننده می شه یا وبلاگ نویس یا یه یه چیزی تو این مایه ها.<br />
تفاوت های الکی. فیس های الکی. فیس های تو خالی. تهوعی از اصالت وجود که سارتر می گفت<br />
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تو حتی اگه یک ساعت و یا شاید هم ساعت ها به یک نقطه روی پانل های خاکستری رنگ اتاقک های مطالعه توی کتابخونه خیره بشی و فکر کنی و فکر کنی و حلاجی کنی باز هم به آخر سریال لاست می رسی. باز هم به آخر خیلی از فیلم ها می رسی که می خوان بگن باید یک کار کرد و اون هم جریان طبیعیه. باید گذاشت بره جلو، خودش اون طور که هست، باید سدش نکرد، جلوشو نگرفت که اینجا چه می کنی، یا اونجا چه می کنی. باید سعی کرد، جهت داد، اما ریز کنترل کردن یه رودخونه ی پر خروش کار ما نیست. اصلن هدف ما هم نیست... ا</div>
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گفتنش یه کم سخته. ولی من سعی امو می کنم که فروش کنم توی همین کلمات بلکه همین جا نقش ببندن. آدم های دور و برم عجیب ان. شاید هم تنهان نمی دونم. تنهایی آدم ها رو عجیب می کنه. شاید هم خودم عجیبم. آره احتمالا خودم عجیبم. می دونی آدم که خودش عجیب باشه فکر می کنه همه عجیبن و فقط خودش عجیب نیست. این هم فلسفه ایه به هر حال.</div>
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گاهی اوقات در مورد خودم به یه سری شناخت هایی می رسم انگار. مرد خانواده ام یا احساس اسارت میکنم با ازدواج؟ یا می خوام تنها باشم؟ یا نه دوست دارم خانواده داشته باشم برای خودم. یه خانواده زیبا و آزادی متفاوتی رو تجربه کنم؟</div>
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خسته می شی خوب دیگه، این جا هم یه جا مثل همه جاهای دیگه رو زمین. آدمه خوب خسته می شه، همش می خواد خسته نشه، همین جوری قدم به قدم یه سری بطری های آب معدنی راه به راه گذاشتن تو کویر که تشنه شدی برسی بهشون و بتونی بری جلوتر و بری جلوتر و بالاخره برسی به واحه ای که سراب نیست</div>
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و کسایی که خودشون و از اول صب تا بوق سگ به کار مشغول می کنن تا سرگرم کاری باشن تا فکر نکنن تا دلشون نخواد که سرشونو بکوبن به دیوارهای خط خطی. که دیگه مجالی واسه ذهن وا موندشون نمونه که بخوان به آینده یا گذشته فکر کنن. کاری که ازشون خواسته شده رو انجام می دن بی کم و کاست. رییس راضی ازشون و زندگی و روز و شب هم پیش می ره. خانواده هم ازشون راضیه. همین کافیه؟ خودت چی؟ خودت راضی هستی؟ خودت چی می خوای؟ خودت چی می خوای آخه از این بودنت؟<br />
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پ.ن. پست پیش نویس شده از جون 2016 امروز منتشر شد. چرا..؟<br />
پ.ن. توضیح تصویر در زیر<br />
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<span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Invisibilia Episode #1 "The Secret History of Thoughts". </span></span><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: x-small; font-style: italic; font-weight: inherit;">Daniel Horowitz for NPR</span><span aria-label="Image credit" class="credit" style="border: 0px; box-sizing: border-box; display: block; font-family: Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-stretch: inherit; font-style: italic; font-variant-numeric: inherit; font-weight: inherit; line-height: 1; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><span style="background-color: white; font-family: "Gotham SSm", Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Co-hosts Alix Spiegel and Lulu Miller ask the question, "Are my thoughts related to my inner wishes, do they reveal who I really am?" The answer can have profound consequences for your life.</span></span></span></div>
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Gishar!http://www.blogger.com/profile/05004352101559539041noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3142496258656012643.post-28857563626747614462016-07-25T18:19:00.002+04:302016-07-25T18:19:26.441+04:30Bio 79<div class="MsoNormal" dir="RTL" style="direction: rtl; text-align: right; unicode-bidi: embed;">
<span style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif;">مثل يه فلاخن مي مونه كه به سمت بالا شليكت ميكنه. ميدوني يه جورايي تو بهش ميگي مثلن ميخواي برسي به اونجا، به ماه، به خورشيد يا مثلن ارتفاع يك كيلومتري. خودش ميدونه كي و كجا بچه فلاخن ها رو كار بذاره كه وقتي از اولي رها شدي و با سرعت به سمت هدفت رفتي تا جايي كه انرژي فلاخن اول تموم شده و تنبل شدي و ديگه شتاب نداري ميافتي تو دومي.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif;">فكر ميكني باز تو تله افتادي باز سرگيجه ميگيري انقدر ميچرخوندت و سرعتتو زياد ميكنه كه احساس ميكني دنيا دورت ميچرخه و ناگهان با سرعت هرچه تمام تر به سمت بالا، به سمت هدفت پرتت ميكنه. و اين داستان هميشه تكرار ميشه. هميشه تا به هدفت و هدف بعدي و هدف بعدي برسوندت. اين دلاشوب ها همه اش برای اينه كه سرعت تو بره بالا. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif;">تا هميشه</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , sans-serif;">من همیشه</span></div>
Gishar!http://www.blogger.com/profile/05004352101559539041noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3142496258656012643.post-2855762414948559772016-06-25T23:12:00.001+04:302016-06-25T23:12:47.183+04:30Bio 78<div style="text-align: right;">
هوس خوابگاه تبریز و کردم با همون دوستای دلدار. قلیون. چای. سیگار هم بود. صدای ساز. البته وقتی توشی تقریبا هیچکس دلدار نیست و تقریبان چیزای خیلی کمی جذاب و خاطره ساز به حساب میان. این طبیعت ماست که همیشه بعد از عبور زمانی یا مکانی از چیزی یا کسی یا جایی دوباره نوستالژیک وار بهش بر میگردیم و لذت درد دلتنگی اسیرمون می کنه. ولش کن مهم نیست، خوب هوس خوابگاه کردم و چایی و دلکش که اسیر دام توام ای محرم رازم...ا</div>
Gishar!http://www.blogger.com/profile/05004352101559539041noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3142496258656012643.post-83817135774752862362016-06-14T17:31:00.000+04:302016-06-14T17:31:39.080+04:30Bio 77<div class="MsoNormal">
When I first came to the US, I thought how nice of these
people it is to show so much kindness when they see you in the streets and the
way they greet you and ask how you are doing and so on. Now, I am totally bored
by this manner of these so-called world class citizens of the states as it turns
out that it is just the same damn routine of their life, void of any meaning. Just
like the way I hated it at home when people pass by each other or see each
other and ask for news saying what’s up or what’s going on in Farsi, these
people also have the same thing and I don’t like it at all. I feel like every
time I pass by someone who asks me what is going on or how is it going or what’s
up, I want to stop them and explain to them what actually is going on with me! I
think that is an appropriate response to what they ask me, and saying “not much”
does not satisfy the requirements of the question. <o:p></o:p></div>
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I think if I do this every time I hear someone asks me how
is it going, that person wouldn’t dare ask me again as I will take a few
minutes of his or her time to answer their question and that’s definitely not
what they have in mind when they ask it. Well I understand it is just a
greeting convention people use but it just doesn’t make any sense to me to use
such greeting when you can say good morning or good evening or anything like
that which actually conveys something and makes sense to say it to someone who
you barely know. Oh I know I am making a big deal out of this but I can’t help it,
it is like a pet peeve I have and I can’t overcome the trouble of letting it
go! Oh the damn rhetoric concepts in my mind have always been bothersome, to
the extent that sometimes I have felt I am losing the meaning of words and
regard them as a bunch of nonsensical sounds expelling from my throat in the
shape of letters with no purpose in their essence. I am confused how I like
language and its craziness and at the same time I get mad at it when it is
being abused.<o:p></o:p></div>
Gishar!http://www.blogger.com/profile/05004352101559539041noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3142496258656012643.post-4592949297464535312016-05-26T19:23:00.000+04:302016-05-26T19:23:18.750+04:30Bio 76<div class="MsoNormal">
Ted English, one of my colleagues here in AHTD is a hunter;
he goes deer hunting in late fall and early winter seasons when it is allowed. They
call it the hunting season. There are several seasons for different hunting
methods including bow and arrow, muzzleloader hunting, and modern gun hunting. The
bow season starts somewhere in October and after a month or so, the
muzzleloader season begins. Sometime in December, the modern gun season starts
while it doesn’t last long. After a season for any method starts, you may still
use the previous method as you wish. Ted says some people do not switch to guns
and stick do bow and arrow because they like the challenge. He does all of them
though and fills his freezer with deer meet.<o:p></o:p></div>
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The last time I was talking to him about hunting and how I used
to go hunting with my dad with those double barrel shotguns and how we mainly
hunted birds as there was no deer in Iran. In our conversation we came to a
point where he explained how tough and challenging it is to use the bow and
arrow or the muzzleloader guns as you only have and only one shot to take the
deer or otherwise you will lose the game. Sometimes, the arrow hits the bone
and it’s just an inch or two into the flesh and the deer just thinks he was bit
by something and moves along. Sometimes, using bow and arrow you may injure the
game and he runs off and you need to track them to find them; it mat even take
a day if the shot is not serious enough to knock him out in time. <o:p></o:p></div>
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For the muzzleloader you also have only one shot as you don’t
have time to refill the gun and all that trouble, because after your first
shot, the deer escapes, so you just have to be fully careful on how you take
your shot. Like bow and arrow, muzzleloader is not quick, it’s a one shot
chance. As he was talking about these something popped in my mind: Eminem’s
song named “lose yourself” where he starts the song by saying “if you have one
shot, one opportunity …” and I told Ted about it and later sent him a link to
the YouTube music video saying that you may put this song into the context of
muzzleloader hunting. How interesting was that!<o:p></o:p></div>
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Gishar!http://www.blogger.com/profile/05004352101559539041noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3142496258656012643.post-89991097172879101232016-05-03T07:02:00.000+04:302016-05-03T07:02:18.373+04:30Instance of Insanity<div class="MsoNormal">
A second I am writing an equation on the moisture content of
the wood, being equal to the difference in the mass of the wet and over-dried wood
sample divided by the over-dried mass, and right away I picture the well-known junction
of Raahband in the city of Sari! Within a few seconds, my close friend in Sari
is marching in front of the screen of my mind and I recall how that junction
looked like and how they were going to transform it to an interchange with
connected over-passing loops and ramps and so on, how Mahdi, my friend waited at
the Times Square of the town through the line of people waiting for taxi and
the route cab would take to reach Raahband and then their house!<o:p></o:p></div>
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Then I find myself totally baffled by the flash back; how
did this happen, such an absolutely out of the ordinary mental reminisce! How could
the wood moisture content connect me to the city of Sari and specifically that
junction in town! Out the millions of buried memoirs in my subconscious, why
would it pick this specific location, and why would it even needed to be a
location and not a person or an event or some scent or taste etc. It is
dazzling how the nature works and it’s even more stunning how all these little
nerves connect and their little chemical and electrical linkage to the past and
future is. It is just something I guess can never be totally understood. But it
was definitely something worth to write about; an instance of insanity!<o:p></o:p></div>
Gishar!http://www.blogger.com/profile/05004352101559539041noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3142496258656012643.post-58973688671647988432016-03-25T23:41:00.000+04:302016-03-25T23:41:45.696+04:304271Just had a phone call from Gloria, the office administrator
of the Public Transportation Section. The caller id said 2471, and I was taken
back in time to about 25 years ago, when the land line telephone had just been
introduced to our little town. Grandpa bought one of these old-fashioned phones
with the finger dialing gadget and all that antiquity features! The number that
was assigned to our household was 4271. Those days, you wouldn’t need to dial a
7-digit number to call anyone in town; only four digits would suffice; although,
if you wanted to call out of town, you would have to add another three digits
to the beginning of it, which were 648, and this was when you wanted to call
within your district, and if you wanted to call someone outside your residing
district, you had to dial another 3-digit number preceding all the seven
numbers suffixing a zero, which was 0-142. So, these numbers are somehow carved
into the wall of my memory and would never drop into my subconscious!<br />
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Another trigger to this whole “wonder” is when I wanted to
reference the coordinator of the course I used to teach at Missouri S&T,
the IDE 120 – Materials Testing, Dr. Jeffery Thomas. His office phone number
was the same as our first phone number, 4271, and I didn’t even need to dial
the 341 for university internal calls, and that was nice too. Calling from
outside the university, though, I had to first dial the area code 573 and then
341-4271.<o:p></o:p></div>
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And now, Gloria’s phone number is 2471, and if I want to
call the department from outside I will have to first dial the area code 501
and then 569-2471. Nice and interesting resemblance and another little trivia
of life, which I enjoy noticing. It’s kind of a thing some people may have like
this friend I had at Missouri S&T, Maryam Abdi. I hope she is doing
alright, she was/is a bright kid and I wish the best for her. But anyway, one
day we were studying or drinking coffee or something at Panera that she
mentioned how she notices a combination of the three numbers 1, 3, and 5 in a
lot of instances through different uses, in the number plates of cars,
telephone numbers in billboard advertisements, some engineering constants in her
books, etc. and she also showed me an occurrence right then, which I don’t
remember what it was. Then she asked me if I had such an observation of numbers
anytime, and well no I had never noticed anything like that. Well that was
somehow interesting too, a little trivia in one’s analytical mind to generate patterns
through random observations in her personal “world of ideas”.<o:p></o:p></div>
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Isn’t this cool to have something foolishly interesting?!<o:p></o:p></div>
Gishar!http://www.blogger.com/profile/05004352101559539041noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3142496258656012643.post-6516401875636043192016-02-12T03:32:00.000+03:302016-02-12T03:32:12.435+03:30Bio 75Steady operation is when a service facility has been open
and in operation for some time. When I reach steady state, I feel void and
would like a just sit and stare at a point in the wall, usually a defect or
something, that makes it different from everything else and most appropriate to
focus upon. Then I would turn on the music, the melancholic playlist I made
myself on Spotify and keep listening to it. The playlist mainly includes my
favorite piano pieces that take me to another land and leaves me floating
there, wondering around without the urge of engaging in a thought process or even
vacated of the automated thought generations of mind. There, I just am, in my
steady state of being, where there is no wonderment or undulations of mental
waves. It is so serene and peaceful that I would like to be operational at all
time, only to reach this point, where nothing can worry, exalt, exasperate, or alter
my mood, and oh, it is so sweet.<br />
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Here are just a few of the melodies in this playlist (I am
not into music so I am just copying their names as they are in my playlist):<o:p></o:p></div>
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<!--[if !supportLists]-->-<span style="font-size: 7pt; font-stretch: normal;">
</span><!--[endif]--><span dir="LTR"></span>Adagio from Concerto No. 3
in D Minor by Bach<o:p></o:p></div>
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<!--[if !supportLists]-->-<span style="font-size: 7pt; font-stretch: normal;">
</span><!--[endif]--><span dir="LTR"></span>Petit Reve Bizarre No. 20
by Brad Hill<o:p></o:p></div>
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<!--[if !supportLists]-->-<span style="font-size: 7pt; font-stretch: normal;">
</span><!--[endif]--><span dir="LTR"></span>Naval by Yann Tiersen, a
soundtrack of the movie Tabarly<o:p></o:p></div>
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<!--[if !supportLists]-->-<span style="font-size: 7pt; font-stretch: normal;">
</span><!--[endif]--><span dir="LTR"></span>Du Cote de Chez Swann,
played by Ellen Cunningham Weaver<o:p></o:p></div>
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<!--[if !supportLists]-->-<span style="font-size: 7pt; font-stretch: normal;">
</span><!--[endif]--><span dir="LTR"></span>Adiago Marcello Bach,
played by Leslie Bridges<o:p></o:p></div>
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<!--[if !supportLists]-->-<span style="font-size: 7pt; font-stretch: normal;">
</span><!--[endif]--><span dir="LTR"></span>Valkyrie No. 11 in B-Flat
Minor, played by Calos Marquez<o:p></o:p></div>
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</span><span dir="LTR" style="text-indent: -0.25in;"></span><span style="text-indent: -0.25in;">Nocturne No. 20 in C Sharp
Minor, by Frederic Chopin</span><br />
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Gishar!http://www.blogger.com/profile/05004352101559539041noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3142496258656012643.post-7748364287281367032016-01-14T00:49:00.002+03:302016-01-14T00:49:54.475+03:30Vomit 17So the New Year has arrived right? 2016! What a year it is
going to be, full of ambitions, goals and crap. You know some people keep
mocking everything, and I mean literally everything; although, it usually
depends on their mood for throwing sarcastic comments. Such people, people like
me, do stuff and turn back at themselves and make fun of themselves! You know
it’s not only other people who are mocked, but the self too! It is strange to
me how I plan for future and strain to stick to it, and accomplish little
objectives, and so on, and finally I take a look at everything I did and I say
you did a good job son, so what now?! At the end, I look at myself and feel
happy about my achievements. Yet, there is something absurd about all this,
which makes me uncomfortable. It is like I am making a machine out of myself
and take pleasure in my automated performances toward manufacturing a product. Well,
the product is joy but it’s somehow artificial, seasoned with a self-aggrandizing
sense of victory. It’s hollow you know, it’s not what I want to feel, though it
can help prevent developing a self-decaying sense.<br />
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So I tried to make it more organized through a more
accountable plan which also includes the essentials of the primitive emotions
in human nature. I mean un-materialistic objectives that are linked to other
people. I am referring to those emotional feelings that are necessarily
developed from acting as a social creature and not just pretending to be one. Therefore,
to alleviate the pain felt by the unconscious mockery of my chores, take your
time, pick up the phone, call your friends and family, talk to them and ask how
they are feeling, how they are doing, is everyone alone in this world or some
are lonelier than the other ones. Then, go out more often, watch the birds more
often, listen to music more often, be with your wife, look at people instead of
merely passing by them, do things that relieve you from your sardonic sense of
humor. When you talk about all these and somehow feel like you have revised
your plans, take a look at everything and see how mockingly bitter all this is.
Even, this note, though a lonesome in the cyber world, is petite and wretched…
goals and objectives are our crafts to escape from this pity we feel and
amazingly, it works just fine...<span style="color: #c00000; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-bidi-font-size: 11.5pt; mso-bidi-font-style: italic; mso-bidi-font-weight: bold;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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First of January past. Fifth past too...</div>
Gishar!http://www.blogger.com/profile/05004352101559539041noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3142496258656012643.post-70741562863250474512015-12-06T05:05:00.000+03:302015-12-06T05:05:47.086+03:30Bio 74Yesterday, I went into the bedroom and went to check on my closet for the shirt with a losing button and there he was, sitting on the ground curled up all sad and melancholic with a headphone in his ears listening to a melody which was even sadder than him. I checked on my shirt and left him there, shut the door and left him in there. A few steps and I heard him cry and burst into tears, that I couldn't go on leaving him like that. I had to go back and get him; I stood him up and hugged him but I was not able to say a thing. He kept sobbing on my shoulder and couldn't stop it. I hung in there for a while until he calmed down a bit and when he did, he just stood there and stared at me with his eyes filled with impending explosion.<br />
You brought me in this world and it's not a good world; I am tired of this place and want to go home where there is nothing to think about. I don't want to be here in this hell hole, what burns me is what tortures my mind, your behavior has changed and that kills me. The people you go with and the actions you take, all and all are becoming unbearable, and I couldn't hear anymore as he went on telling me who I am, narrating what I already knew about myself...Gishar!http://www.blogger.com/profile/05004352101559539041noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3142496258656012643.post-21096554215194029312015-10-01T18:43:00.002+03:302015-10-01T18:43:38.891+03:30Bio 73The little calf had just been born and after a few hours were on his feet. They are not humans to take several months to learn and practice standing on their feet for the first time! They are strong and can do it right away after they open their eyes to this not-so-fair world. Although, they still need the care of their mothers for some time until they can eat what their kind eats.<br />
My little calf was born just fine but then a few weeks after, his mother died and he didn't have milk anymore. We had to feed him ourselves so he could gain strength and that was fine. Then he got sick and the vet said it's an acute illness which will be with him for years to come. There is this much monthly payment for his medicine. I never wanted him to die, so I said that's fine and got along with it. A few months passed and one day while he was playing joyfully in our backyard, he fell and broke his leg and was seriously in pain when I got to him.<br />
Poor creature thought he was of no worth to me or anyone but he never knew how I thought of him all this time, how I took care of him, how I fed him when he was to young to feed himself, and how I adore him for what he is, for just his being there. I could see the rays of life pouring out of his big black eyes and the way he yearned to be just alive and enjoy the experience, no matter how sick he was or how worthless. He just wanted to be. So I hugged his tender neck and petted him and whispered in his ear that there is nothing he should worry about as long as I am around. I will take care of him and I will raise him and I will take him to see the world. There is nothing he should worry about. He should just be and look me in the eye with his big black pearl eyes.<br />
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<br />Gishar!http://www.blogger.com/profile/05004352101559539041noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3142496258656012643.post-91355414528675580072015-09-04T01:35:00.001+04:302015-09-04T01:35:23.204+04:30Bad Luck Chain 3Just left the post office. Completely unconsciously muted. Mouth-cuffed, felt a pity for the system and myself that can do nothing but bear the situation. Said OK and left..<br />
This country can be so cruel, or maybe it is better to say it is cruel as it is based on Money. Money does everything in here. It buys you and kills you. There are rules for the tiniest things you may do in here but if the rule is not followed by the rule making system, there is shit you can eat and not much you can do.<br />
Sometimes, I think that if there was something I could do, I wouldn't need to be upset, but it kills me when there is unfairness and nothing supports me. The system is flawed somehow. It drives me crazy and is very slowly changing me to a stone-hearted person just like themselves, nice and kind on the surface but indifferent in depth. I am really coming to this understanding that no one here cares about anything but money. There is a reason so many movies, musics, etc. are about this damned thing which drives this whole country.<br />
So I just left the post office, screwing the system in my mind and promising myself to not ever be kind to any governmental system.Gishar!http://www.blogger.com/profile/05004352101559539041noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3142496258656012643.post-33640639919497977022015-06-01T06:10:00.001+04:302015-06-01T06:10:17.704+04:30Bio 72<div style="text-align: right;">
بهم میگه کجایی بابا پس چرا نمی نویسی، میگم بابا می نویسم که و یادم میاد که برای خودم می نویسم و کسی نمی بینه. رو یه پروژه ای کار می کنم اونم واسه خودم. کلن خیلی از چیزای این جوری رو کسی نمی بینه. یه جوری خودم و مشغول می کنم دیگه چه کنم. میگه پس کو ما که چیزی نمی بینیم! میگم راس میگی حواسم نبود که چند وقت بود ننوشتم. میام بنویسم میبینم هر چی بوده این چند وقت جفنگیاتی بوده که به انگلیسی بلغور کردم واسه خودم شاید هم واسه مردم، نمی دونم، واسه هر کی که بخونه و مثلن واسه خودم می نویسم اینجا هم اما خوب بقیه هم می خونن. هیچ وقت نمیشه بگی جایی که بنویسی و بقیه هم بتونن بخونن واسه خودت می نویسی. همیشه یه گوشه ی ذهنت انگار حواسش هست که چیزی اضافی ننویسه یا یه چیزای جالبی بنویسه که اگه کسی خوند هم خوشش بیاد. حالا به خودم میگم دیگه انگلیسی نوشتنت واسه چی بود و حوصله ی پیدا کردن جواب براش و ندارم و شاید هم دارم و خودم می دونم که احتمالن جواب بیخودیه و محکمه پسند نیست و جواب نمی دم. میگم باشه می نویسم . اومدم و دارم می نویسم اما از چی...!ا</div>
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با خودم فکر می کنم می بینم موقع رانندگی هزار و یک چیز جور واجور میاد تو ذهنم که خوراک نوشتنه ولی اون موقع که نمیشه نوشت! بعد میگم خوب لااقل صوتی ضبطش کنم بعد تنبلیم میاد و میره واسه خودش. موقع کتاب خوندن هم همین طوره. ولی موقع نوشتن یعنی وقتی که به عمد میشینی که بنویسی نه! فایده نداره باید بنویسی که بشینی نه بشینی که بنویسی این مدلی کار نمی کنه لعنتی. این چند وقته یا بهتر بگم این چند ماهه یه جورایی خیلی روتین گذشته. به کتاب خوندن و فیلم دیدن و سر کار رفتن. حس می کنم هر روز دارم خنگ تر میشم یا در واقع هر روز به خنگی خودم بیش تر آگاه میشم. این کتاب و می خونم و میگم چقدر من خنگم و اون موضوع رو یاد می گیرم و میبینم چقدر خنگ بودم یا شاید هم نمیشه بگم خنگ بودم بهتره بگم هیچی نمی دونستم و هر روز هم که میگذره بیشتر به این جهالت خودم پی می برم و همش به این فکر می کنم که این همه سال رو من همین جوری به بیخیالی طی کردم و خودم و سرزنش می کنم و بعد می گم خوب بابا رفتی گشتی خوش بودی و از این جور حرف ها که خیلی ها بهت می گن خوش به حالت رفتی گشتی خوش گذرونی کردی و غیره. نمی دونم چی بگم فقط امیدوارم که دیگه بعد از این، از این زمانی که برام می گذره بتونم بهتر استفاده کنم. بیشتر ببینم، بخونم، بنویسم. البته امیدوارم که اینطور پیش بره ولی معلوم که نیست؛ شاید در آینده یه فلسفه ی دیگه بیاد تو ذهنم و زندگی و هر چه در آن است رو یه بازیچه ببینم و دمی خوش بودن و از این جور اباطیل متفاوت رو برگزینم. نمی دونم. گفتن نمی دونم فکر می کنم بهترین کاری باشه که می شه کرد. هیچ چیزی مشخص نیست برای همیشه. آدم ها عوض میشن هر روز و طرز نگاهشون به همه چیز عوض میشه. خودشون رو نقض می کنن و بزرگ میشن. خوب ما هم بزرگ میشیم. عزیز دل انگیز سعی تو بکن خلاصه شاید یه روزی واقعا تونستی بفهمی که چقدر نمی دونی و هیچی نیستی.</div>
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دیگه در همین حد میشه اینجا نوشت. از بچه ها و خانواده ام، از دانسته های پرملات ام، از نوشته های بی ربط، از قرمه سبزی و از خودم فعلن چیزی به جای نمونده جز اینکه نمی دونم....ا</div>
Gishar!http://www.blogger.com/profile/05004352101559539041noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3142496258656012643.post-63432906286305441772015-05-04T22:46:00.001+04:302015-05-04T22:46:52.776+04:30Bio 71Hey let's be honest, wasn't it an absolutely waste of time? to follow the trajectory of an imaginary planet around the sun, name it God, over a two-day-full weekend? wasn't it a waste?<br />
Even if it was all a game so far, and even if it still is a game, a puppet show for the big guys of the universe, it still worth to play well, right? Or am I wrong thinking that living fully would be just a little childish disobedience of a naughty child who does not agree to just "be" in a vast circus, paying no attention to the rules and all the commandments.<br />
All I am saying is that even if you fly all over the galaxies and even if you truly find out that this is only a well organized game, wouldn't you want to play the game wisely and be a winner than to point your finger at the master of puppets and say why have you entered me in the game? That's utterly out of your control baby.<br />
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So let's dance with the rhythm while we're here in this wonderland.<br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #181818; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><i>“You've gotta dance like there's nobody watching,</i></span></span><br />
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Gishar!http://www.blogger.com/profile/05004352101559539041noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3142496258656012643.post-80217963107872121702015-04-23T06:02:00.001+04:302015-04-23T06:02:17.569+04:30Story time 01<span style="font-family: inherit;">I was talking to my son last night and we had a long one and a half hour nonstop conversation and he talked and talked and I listened and listened. Here is what I </span>remember<span style="font-family: inherit;">...</span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">" ...When</span><span style="font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"> </span><span style="font-family: inherit;">grandpa got rid of that grape vine I remember how sad I was. He cut it a few feet above the </span>root stock<span style="font-family: inherit;"> with an </span>axe<span style="font-family: inherit;"> and left the remaining stump loose. The upper parts slowly withered and just loosely hung from the sour apple and pear tree branches. The remaining trunk which was still connected to the mother earth was our playmate for a while until it got rotten and drooped from the grief of his faded descendants. The story of a </span>vine with <span style="font-family: inherit;">sweet reddish purple-colored grapes which was a friend of the little boy... "</span><br />
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Gishar!http://www.blogger.com/profile/05004352101559539041noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3142496258656012643.post-83749527203052045692015-03-12T06:04:00.000+03:302015-04-07T17:21:00.760+04:30The Void<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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It has been a long time since the void has been gone. I had treated it with the debris of patience and tolerance; although the role of the little artificial friends should not be forgotten in any case, I started thinking and recalling memories into my conscious being and then I remembered a day when the work was so hectic I never realized when it had ended. I cam home with the idea of doing nothing but watching a movie or two. Then I had some salad as supper and finished the first movie I had started two days ago, <a href="http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0050212/?ref_=nv_sr_3" target="_blank">The bridge over the river kwai</a>. I am not a person who likes to watch old movies; in fact I don't easily go toward them. I guess the IMDB ratings of those movies are biased and most of the time I don't find them as appealing. But then I have this obsession that I must see the movie that is made of a book I have read. I liked the book, it was one of those that once gets your attention never let go and it ends drastically unexpected. That's what made it even more interesting. Anyhow, I watched the movie and I didn't like it much compared to the book. I know it is believed that books are always better than the movies and the first release of a series of movies are always better than the follow ups. The only one very nice thing about the movie was that I finally accidentally got to know the name of the famous melody I hear many times is Colonel Bogey..<br />
So I thought I'd rather watch the other one in my list waiting to be seen: <a href="http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0101316/?ref_=nv_sr_2" target="_blank">The Lover</a>. I had listened to the audio version of the book written by Marguerite Duras translated into Persian. I liked the book but then it had a something hidden in it that i could never understand. The indifference in the attitude of the girl, a concealed sadness. I am so unable to describe what I felt in this character but it felt too familiar to me. There I sat and watched the movie to the very end of it. Loved the movie and I could only barely feel the familiarity of the atmosphere but even that little hazy sense was so grasping that completely change my mood! It's a relief to know the sense was just barely touched and not desiring to dig into the pile of the unconsciousness and leave me deserted in misery.<br />
The void was there again when I started listening to the powerful soundtrack of the movie several times, and then again and again but the void wouldn't fill up! No kind of debris would work now! So there is the smoke and there is listening to the music again and again until I start writing it down and finish patching the void right now.<br />
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P.S. Not Spoiler: <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=83bmsluWHZc" target="_blank">Soundtrack </a>of the The bridge over river kwai: Colonel Bogey<br />
PP.S. Not Spoiler: <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cxG-kOTMgaA" target="_blank">Soundtrack </a>of the the L'Amant (The lover)<br />
PPP.S. Spoiler (Movie Ending): <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nz9kAZWi3fk" target="_blank">Soundtrack</a> of the L'Amant (The lover)<br />
PPPP.S. I like this note.<br />
PPPPP.S. Source of the <a href="http://en.wikibooks.org/wiki/General_Astronomy/The_Theory_of_the_Naked_Singularity" target="_blank">photo</a>Gishar!http://www.blogger.com/profile/05004352101559539041noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3142496258656012643.post-71778764924847699412015-03-04T00:07:00.000+03:302015-03-04T00:07:01.123+03:30Bio 70Then right after the turbulent curves of the white waters came another twist and then there was a shallow stretch of water, rumbling forward stirring the pebbles and the lime, moving ahead like a wild bull. He bore the whole roughness and endured through the harsh phase, strongly paddling and balancing the canoe until finally the water rested and it is still at calm. The depth is so much you barely can see it moving forward. Life is in a steady state now. It still goes on but you don't notice, though it takes a little more effort on such phases to move forward, with the prevalent depth of this part, rolling over is not an option. Swimming is enjoyable I guess, you might wanna give it a try while the boat remains at reach. You may not see it moving forward but it actually does. You may swim, or row ahead but do not forget ever that this is only another phase. There will be turmoils ahead. Keep calm and be at peace!Gishar!http://www.blogger.com/profile/05004352101559539041noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3142496258656012643.post-4416028078660936672015-02-11T23:04:00.001+03:302015-02-11T23:04:17.446+03:30Arterials<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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What do I want for my birthday? It is today, yes! Do I need a robe de chabmre? Do I need a pair of pants? What do I need? Maybe it's the need I have always followed to see what I want. Maybe that has not been the best approach toward what I want. I do not know. It has been years since the first time I wrote this <a href="http://karuj.blogspot.com/2010/02/birthday.html" target="_blank">post</a> on my birthday and I remember I used to have another weblog in the older times and I used to write the same thing in there too. It never got old to me I know, and it's not old even today. I used to call my other weblog with the same name, though it was typed in Persian. I loved that antique and wish I never had deleted it.<br />
What do I want for my birthday? I want some excitement I guess. Boredom is too boring nowadays. I try to get myself involved in many things and make my days as beneficial as possible, that, perhaps, many people wish they could do that. I enjoy it too but I am not sure whether they really are what I want. The need that I feel to have all these little so-called valuable stuff in my daily life is not what I want. Maybe that's just another way to fool myself that I am not bored and I am living a fantastic life full of learning and excitements.<br />
Read books, do photography, learn software, learn how to's, read some more, watch TV shows, learn some more, and there are lots of stuff to learn that will never end. Prepare for exams, prepare for promotions, prepare for next levels. I am not sure if those are really what I want!! Maybe in ten years, given that I am still alive, I look back and tell myself, well, I wanted those things in those days and that's what I did. I am not sure if they are truly in the line of my wishes or no. The only thing I can say is that I enjoy them at this time and if this is a good reason enough to say they are what I want, so be it.<br />
I know that I am not made for boredom, routine, and repetitive jobs. I guess that's why I filled my schedule with all these to-do's with different natures so that it makes me relieved from the so-called stability of daily job, not that I don't like my job. I love it but when it comes to repeating the same thing, I hardly can tolerate unless I am forced to do so. That's why even at work I try to season my job with learning or doing other specialty-related researches to peel the dumbness of the routine.<br />
Today is my birthday and I think everyday is my birthday. If not every day, every week I should certainly have a birthday to celebrate otherwise boredom enslaves me and strangles me until I .. don't know!<br />
I have been missing my family for so long. Maybe that's what I need and want for my birthday. Just another feeling I guess. Life has treated me well, though rough sometimes but well overall. I am thankful and confused. Maybe it's just wonder and adventure and excitement but I don't know. I just feel it could be it. I hope I do not die in confusion of what I wanted really.<br />
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I really miss my days, when I could just simply laugh, when I think about those days, I feel like "yesterday, love was such an easy game to play." I feel stuck in the boredom of routines again which is not the type of person I am or want to be ever. I detested such conditions all my life. I felt I could reach that but I realized that life is just a little more about realities than fiction. Grow more, earn more, buy more, aggregate more, need more, want more, and pile up all your rental needs. Possessions, that's what concerns me. Responsibilities are just not an easy thing to handle. Cooperation is required. I feel alone with people who what they must do and tag it as cooperation. I do not think cooperation is task-oriented; cooperation is more about doing what you are not required to do but is better to do to achieve a better result. Self-indulgence, is an attraction for the people who have the potential to let themselves go for their needy ambitions. There is no halt for that, and I don't see a joy in it either. It is filled with hypocrisy, with showiness and phoniness.<br />
Fake people surround you with their superficial dazzling complexions and yet you don't know how empty their hearts are. I am fed-up with this.<br />
Only if I could, I would probably go, and go to the very end of the world, where I could just close my eyes and rest for a little bit before the day I die. I never intended to nag in this post but I just couldn't control my fingers typing the faces of regrets. This was a vomit indeed. I am never short of words but I hate a recurrence of the same concept exhibiting itself in different faces. Even this note is fake, full of hypocrisy. write it down, empty yourself and go back to your life where you can never be thankful for what you have. and you keep needing more, and wanting more until your time is up before you are ever satisfied.<br />
That is it, mockery of lifeGishar!http://www.blogger.com/profile/05004352101559539041noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3142496258656012643.post-78713947925015015402014-12-05T16:53:00.001+03:302014-12-05T16:53:32.617+03:30Bio 68What's the point anyway? I understand that we have our ups and downs sometimes. It is just a natural life of a creature named human being. Imagine everything was so nice and cool and that you never would have to go through a tough time. Wouldn't that be boring? I mean really, Imagine you never had to go through a little challenge, sit at home and have no worries at all, nothing to solve and nothing to think about. That would have been certainly the most boring life that is very much likely to finally end up in depression. I understand that each one of us wish for a nice and cool life with no problem or anything, wish we could just lay down and have fun. But I am very sure that I will enroll in a gradual decaying death in such condition. I am not a person of having no trouble either physical or mental I guess. I should be involved in something somehow to prevent myself from delving into thought stagnation, not that it is bad, no a thought that is not moving everywhere is indeed rising from the best mind that can calm itself down. That's what is referred to meditation and all, what i am saying is the well known phrase of "the devil finds work for the idle mind" and that's where you approach the phase of depression in life. So, long story short, I want to say that sometimes we even need to be thankful for all the troubles we have in life, for all the problems we have to deal with, so we can test ourselves and improve our skills and help each other and all the rest of such things people say like philanthropic activities and so on and so forth.<br />
There is also, another side of it which i am not going to talk about, and that is to imagine a life full of trouble and issues and challenges and so on where you can't find a time for yourself to relax. I guess most of us believe we fall in this category which is a hundred percent a result of our own perceptions and the tendency we all have to see ourselves putting on the worst shoes in the world. This is out of the context at this point. I wish people could only see what they want and could find what makes them happy rather than what they do not have, do not want, and what makes them unhappy!!Gishar!http://www.blogger.com/profile/05004352101559539041noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3142496258656012643.post-25140553903807574472014-10-29T04:36:00.001+03:302014-10-29T04:36:32.917+03:30Bio 67I just wanted to say that I am still alive and kicking. There has been a lot going on in the past few months and I could never get a chance to ask myself what is the rush to all these schedules. Now that I have a chance I feel reluctant to ask it because I am sure that i will not be able to answer it. Therefore, I am going to let it be there just like a thousand other beings emerging from the dead every now and then pricking my soul and passing away. That's it. Oh one, more thing, I was finally able to check out the movie <a href="http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0117951/?ref_=nv_sr_1" target="_blank">Transpotting </a>from my list. I found it a good movie, well made and worth watching.Gishar!http://www.blogger.com/profile/05004352101559539041noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3142496258656012643.post-72676474991579642542014-06-10T07:38:00.001+04:302014-06-10T07:38:25.388+04:30The devil wears Prada<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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It has been two or three weeks that I had reserved a link in my Facebook updates for "only me" to read it later: "Fashion is for poor people" and finally I got a chance to go over the article because it sounded very familiar to me so that I had saved it for a future good read. Alright then, well this guy who authored the note has a good sense of humor and I guess our interests are very much alike with respect to the thinking algorithms! take it from criticizing the people who follow the or as he says are "into" fashion and the way fashion industry manipulate people's minds on the way they think about their public characters. Overall, a good read I just wanted to say it. no judgement. Just being. Here is the <a href="http://www.inqmind.co/2012/09/fashion-is-for-poor-people/" target="_blank">link </a>to the aforementioned impulse read to avoid impulse purchase. Funny it goes for like five minutes, don't miss.<br />
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p.s. the picture is a charcoal drawing by <a href="http://everydayadrawing.com/author/Davy/" target="_blank">Davy</a>Gishar!http://www.blogger.com/profile/05004352101559539041noreply@blogger.com0