last night

Rain was so cool last night. it just reminds me of the olden days or better to say nights of which the sky had a harmony with me. last night the sky was red and it was really awesome, you better study this:
Once upon a night, the little descending daggers falling from the red sky, cemetery in solitude by me standing there in front of a sword-man, begging to be recruited for another disgrace, rain didn't smell of elegance but hostility but my lovely loneliness was the victorious competent of the night; and that was promptly different from the last night's dew-shaped drops of rain in which I was free of all custody n all obsessions.
Last night was something unique n I wish it continues to be as unique as my deep dark red ...

Curiosity

Well, this is gonna be about the cat whose curiosity has been diminished in time and once he found there only has remained one string of his point catching nose hairs and it was today...
I was writing something, noticed the calibri typeface of the MS WORD is being the default font of the document! after two years of having this Vista on my notebook how come I just realized it today! went after it and found that the Times typeface with all those boring serifs is no longer the default font of MS Word! that was really amazing and I also found that I liked this Calibri font for  two years that I didn't even noticed that where it has come from..
back to the main point, it's a shame for a cat who loses his curiosity. I even remember very detailed probes of my very young ages into very unimportant cases in which I could know what's going on around me, and now it seems that involving into things. being obsessed with so-called important things and not to be like a naughty child is not that tasty for me at least. damn it Gishar. damn it, come on and put some string there to enjoy the being. good luck

I See You

(I see you, I see you)

Walking through a dream, I see you
My light and darkness breathing hope of new life
Now I live through you and you through me, enchanted
I pray in my heart that this dream never ends

I see me through your eyes
Breathing new life, flying high
Your love shines the way into paradise
So I offer my life as a sacrifice
I live through your love

You teach me how to see all thats beautiful
My senses touch your world I never pictured
Now I give my hope to you, I surrender
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I pray in my heart that this world never ends

I see me through your eyes
Breathing new life, flying high
Your love shines the way into paradise
So I offer my life
I offer my love for you

And my heart was never open
And my spirit never free
To the world that you have shown me
But my eyes could not envision
All the colours of love and of life evermore,
Evermore

I see me through your eyes
Breathing new life, flying high
Your love shines the way into paradise
So I offer my life as a sacrifice
I live through your love
I live through your love

I see you
I see you

This is the lyric of a very beautiful song of Leona Lewis,

It's also a main eye-catching feature of the movie Avatar which I adore.

here's a link to the song

آواتار

دیشب آواتار رو دیدم تو سینما دس پرس سنت لوییز، تازه از نوع سه بعدی، فوق العاده بود معرکه بود. مدت ها بود یه فیلم توپس ندیده بودم، جنگل، روح، آرامش، عشق، جنگ برای آزادی، مدرنیزه، فضا، زمین، عشق، روح، عشق، تکنولوژی، آینده، لذت، عشق، انسان، جنگ، آزادی، شرف، آرامش ... چقدر این فیلم بهم چسبید با این همه جلوه ویژه و اکشن، اکشنی که فقط اکشن نبود...

ببینم باز هم میگی اگه چیزی هنوز تو این دنیا باشه که بتونه جاری ت کنه، اینجا جای خوبی نیست. بسه بودن؟ اگه هنوز بتونی خالی بشی یه جورایی بازم بسه بودن؟

اگه هنوز هم یه موزیکی باشه که بتونه متلاطمت کنه باز هم میگی زر مفت میزنی تو گوش من؟ برو کشکتو بساب که هنوز هم هستن کسایی یا چیزایی که بتونی گاهی بهشون فکر کنی

Not that bad, not to be good

Today wasn't that bad to say it wasn't good though it wasn't that good to say it wasn't bad! research was tasting like a ripen pear though it often testes like a rotten egg. I donno who says I should still poke my nose into these damn course works and all those bullshits, life still streaming, yet not started for me? that's not true for sure, it has long been commenced since I found how I can love a tree. that's the way I live here while being away from home and also there's something worthy to mention and it's cold out, but hold out and do like I do, babe.

slash. end of this note

گاهی به آسمان نگاه کن

هیچی! فقط اینکه امروز روز بدی نبود. گهگاه خوشحال بودن یا در واقع شدن هم حال می ده. در نوع خودش می تونه بهت ثابت کنه که اونقدر ها هم که فکرشو بکنی سخت نیست، یا اینکه لازم نیست مثلا سختش کنی، بذار بره خود لعنتیش درست میشه. هیچی! همین، فقط اینکه امروز روز بدی نبود...

Trash diary

It's like a ghost roaming in the mind, grinding my pink cells, what the heck is this attitude I get sometime. and this trash bin has turned to be my pocket diary. actually it's not a diary! it's being a trash dump! I'm sorry for the technology, I'm being emptied here for so long times, do you know the garden of eden? I've never been there, but this disgusting attitude has always been there so far to now! being human sometime sucks, life sometime sucks, some time not.. sorry trash diary

Sometimes

You know what? sometimes it's really weird this way. being here as an stranger, doing ur works and all those bullshits n still having some feeling terrible deep down inside. this being here. just this being here sometimes gets dreadful. I'm serious, It sometimes drive me crazy. I was talking to one of my friends Amin, regarding the fact, if I, typically me, if I had no family, no friend no one that care for me, I probably get rid of this fucking life. it sometime nonesence. I tatsed it. fine! I'm done but again it comes to the people I know, not I love, but they love me! they mind n they care where I am, what i do, how I do... that's the only point of being alive sometime. God, lovely lord, I'm sorry for bein so rude oftenly, but this is the way it is. show me something to stand on it. attention plz. I said sometimes...

Solitude

I feel like I'm in a relationship with solitude. it means that I'm single but not looking. well, that's a requirement of being a grad student in Missouri S&T. at least it sounds so for me!

Diwali

wooo is not just an expression of enjoy, it's also want to say somebody's surprised! lemme say something, you know how many cultures are there in India? how many religions, how many traditions .. how many Gods, how many people .., I remember once I was reading about Buddha and Buddhism and that was the point I ralaly got interested in Indian religions and beliefs .. found the Vishnu, Shiva and all those interesting stuff, however you may not be that much interested in all those but I AM.
Yesterday on Oct. 25 we went on a very old tradition called Diwali Festival performed by Indian Association in Missouri S&T. fantastic it was. I have always been waiting for such an occasion in which I could attend in these kinda events, there were all colors, great colors all those ones I'm in love from the very old times. Red, Orange, yellow and their combinations. I can't describe the event, it's just the way you should see yourself. different kinda dances, woooo great really enjoying performs .. I don't remember the dances but it was so coool all those symbols gestured by the faces and finger shapes and postures, wow I loved it ...

that was awesome...

مکث

من، اینجا نیستم. اولش نمی تونستم کاری کنم که بعد از من مکث کنی اما این کار و کردم. این چیز "،" بهترین چیزیه که میتونه گاهی اوقات آدما رو نجات بده.
مهم نیست اینجا فارسی بنویسی یا هر زبان مرده ی دیگه ای که دوس داری یا دوست نداری در هر صورت باید بتونی بدون اون چیز هم کاری کنی که بقیه بتونن بعد از تو لحظه ای مکث کنن. لپ مطلب همین بود.
من، اینجا هستم امشب

Sparkling dots

I saw them again! sparkling dots, closed my eyes while drops of water washing away my tiredness, pressure comes out and then the sparking dots all over me...
I just can't focus on them I don't know what they are... I look at them, they vanish at once. I just love them all and wait for them to come along.
Sparkling dots ..

Tired of being tired

Just came home after a very boring day's usual works. though I woke up late today, got lots of thing to do yet did some of 'em done! home works hopefully are done. tomorrows classes, meetings, etc. is waiting for me again.
God willing I'll be leader.
reminds me of that awful movie sunshine cleaning in which the girl says: "you are great, you are powerful, you are the leader". lol.
time to get up.